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Vaccine by Pollyanna
Summary: Marita wants something from Alex. R.
Disclaimer: The characters and situations of the television program "The X Files" are the creations and property of Chris Carter, Fox Broadcasting, and Ten-Thirteen Productions, and have been used without permission. No copyright infringement is intended. Title: Vaccine Author: Pollyanna Email: pollyanna@tifling.demon.co.uk Category: VA Rating: R for language and some coital situations Spoilers: Patient X Summary: Marita wants something from Alex Notes: This was written for the 13th Lyric Wheel - the Wheel of Fortune. (http:/www.tifling.demon.co.uk/wheel/wheel.htm) For my lyrics Frankie sent me "Lucky One" by Alison Krauss which was lucky for me since Alison Krauss is a particular favourite of mine! ~~~~ The mattress smelled of sweat, and oil, and other substances she decided not to put too much effort into identifying. Alex had pulled her into one of the deserted crew berths and thrown two mattresses from the bunks onto the floor making a temporary bed for them. She was grateful she hadn't ended up on her back on the bare steel. Alex had not been in a patient mood. They had not bothered with stripping, although her panties must be lying around somewhere, and she was glad of the clothing as the sweat cooled and the cold of the metal ship seeped into her. She snagged a blanket from one of the piles of bedding lying discarded beside the bunks, and tugged it over them. The rigid shape of his left arm dug into her side as she leant over him to get the blanket, and when she was lying down again she traced the length of it through the material, her fingers stopping when they finally felt the warmth of flesh. He always wore the prosthetic when they were together, and she wondered if it was lack of trust, or shame that kept the scars hidden. She didn't raise her eyes although she knew he was looking at her, and at last he broke the silence, his voice low and husky but not with passion. "You don't want to see it, it's a fucking ugly mess." Shame, then, or at least, all he was allowing her to see. She paused, considering her reply. Compassion equalled vulnerability and was too easily seen as pity, which would put him on the defensive when she wanted him relaxed, off guard. "Well, you were always complaining about being too pretty." She looked up and met his eyes for a moment before he threw back his head in a bark of laughter. "And you were always a cold bitch, Marita," he said, with something that might almost have been fondness in his voice. She allowed the edge of her mouth to lift in a small smile. "I like to live up, or perhaps that should be down, to expectations." She sighed dramatically. "You've disappointed me though, Alex. You were the lucky one, so I was told. That's why I decided an alliance was a good idea, I thought it might rub off on me." His reply was coldly amused. "I never realised you were so superstitious, Marita. If I'd have known, I'd have saved one of my fingers for you. You could have hung it from your keyring like a rabbit's foot." She wasn't able to stop the wince of discomfort, even as she knew the sign of weakness lost her a point in the endless game they played. He shrugged as best he could while lying on his back, and continued, "Anyway, in a certain light, if you squint, it was lucky." She looked at him in disbelief. "They could have killed me as I slept. A knife in the ribs would have been a hell of a lot easier than the woodland pruning act." "Why didn't they?" she asked in honest curiosity. He smirked. "I'm just such a lovable guy. They thought they'd do me a favour instead. God save us from our fucking friends. Give me an honest enemy any day." "Is that why Mulder is still alive?" He didn't reply immediately, studying her face to try and read the reason for her question. It was probably difficult for him since she hardly knew herself why she had asked. Perhaps it had been because Mulder was in her thoughts, the lynchpin upon which her plans revolved. He continued as if there had been no pause, but his words were measured out carefully. "Honest? Mulder? The man looking for the truth, who wouldn't recognise the truth if it came up behind him and bit him on the ass?" There was anger leaking into his words, but a suspicion of regret as well, which she stored away to analyse later. "Mulder is a tool. Everyone uses him. You switch him on, push all the right buttons, then stay out of his path so you don't get flattened. Mulder is reliable. Sometimes you rely on him to be a complete crackpot, and sometimes you need him to be the genius who can make connections no one else can see." She wondered if Alex had ever met X. He had said almost the very same thing to her before his death. She remembered the flash of wry humour - so unlike the grim man's usual manner - with which he had ended his description, and she repeated his words now, "Unfortunately, most of the time it's difficult to tell the difference." The chuckle with which he greeted her comment was one of unalloyed enjoyment, and they shared a rare moment of complicit resignation about the raw materials they had to work with. It was only a few seconds before Alex switched back to their usual dance of confrontation. "And you, Marita, are you friend or enemy?" She sucked in her breath in apparent shock, as she considered how best to phrase her reply. It wasn't a question that expected a truthful answer, but she could still give him something that he could trust. "We don't know how to be friends, Alex. It's a skill we laid aside when we entered this fight, but we do have many enemies in common." "Ah, and the enemy of my enemy ..." She interrupted, "... is always working for their defeat. That is what binds us, Alex. We may have other plans, other ambitions, other desires." She cupped his face with her hand in a pretence of tenderness, that came too easily because in another universe it could have been true. "But that is all we can rely on, that we both want to be free." He turned his head into her hand, softly kissing her thumb where it brushed across his lips. She froze, disconcerted, trying to remember a time where he had ever touched her with such simple gentleness. Why was he doing it? Why now? Did he suspect something? His next words calmed her suspicions, even as they contradicted his actions by their very bluntness. "And that is all you can ever hope for from me. Whatever feelings I might have, I'll turn on you the moment you stop being useful, but I'll still be fighting for the same thing we both want." His mouth moved in a smile beneath her hand. "We'll just have to agree to have a difference of opinions when that time comes." She fell back as he sat up halfway and leant over her. His living hand slipped into her blouse and under her loosened bra, circling her breast and smoothing across her nipple. She relaxed under the hypnotic movement, and a thread of heat pulled tight inside her as his hand moved across her chest. Balanced awkwardly on the prosthetic he bent down until his lips just hovered over hers, and she pushed herself up until their mouths were joined. This time it was slow. The edge of hunger had been taken from his passion, and they both wanted it to last, not because of what they felt, but because of what they could pretend. For this brief instant they existed in a moment outside of time, a world where reality had faded away, and they never wanted to leave. She came first and took care not to turn her face away. When he came his eyes stayed open, fixed on hers as if they were the anchor point of his existence. They nestled together in the warmth of the aftermath, and she could feel him dropping away from her into sleep. He must have been exhausted with guarding the boy on the voyage over. She had been relying on that, but now she found herself reluctant to leave. Her left arm was near her ear and she could hear her wristwatch ticking away the minutes. Another second, and another, and just one more. No. She slipped out from under the blanket and looked around until she found her underwear, picking it up and stuffing it in a pocket. "Where's a bathroom? I need to get cleaned up." "The head is on the right by the stairs." His voice was quiet and slurred by tiredness. "I'll be back in a moment." "Yeah." She looked back as she closed the door behind her. His eyes were shut and his breaths were deepening. He looked vulnerable, a little boy asleep, and she had to fight back a wave of guilt. But he'd survive, he always did, and perhaps this time he'd passed on the knack to her. THE END -- Cheers Pollyanna "A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort."
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