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Duty, Obligation, Desperation by Eilan
Summary: "I didn't want this to happen." Three vignettes - WMM, CSM, Diana. The Red And The Black, One Son, Biogenesis. PG.
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Title: Duty, Expectations, Desperation
Category: V, Angst, missing scenes
Keywords: WMM, CSM, Diana
Archive: Yes, just ask me first.
Spoiler: "Patient X/The Red and the Black",
"Two Fathers/One Son", "Biogenesis"
Disclaimer: Not mine, but CC's.
Summary: "I didn't want this to happen." 3 Vignettes
Thanks to: The Lone Gungirls (Karo and XFilerN) and Lanie for the
Author's Note: A collection of 3 short vignettes. Each of them set
in a different episode (see Spoilers). Enjoy.
I didn't want this to happen. I really didn't. But it
happened and now you're lying down there and I can't do
anything. You look like you're dead.
Maybe death would be merciful compared to what you have
to endure now.
How did you get infected with it, Marita? Didn't we teach
you not to get into contact with someone who's infected? Why
did you go against our warnings? Was it worth it?
The vaccacine doesn't work and I know what that means.
Tests. Pain. And the chance that you'll never leave Fort
Yes, we used you all your life. Like we did with many. But
you were safe. And now that you've gone against us your life
once again relies on us. Our vaccacine is your only hope of
survival. Irony, that's what it is. You run away from us,
directly into our arms. If it wasn't you who's lying there
But I can't, because it is you. You're my daughter despite
all that. The only one who was good enough to work for the
syndicate. You're as much biologically my daughter as you're
it ideologically. At least until some time ago. Then you
betrayed us. Did you really think you'd get away with it?
Were you that naive? Because than I've been been a bad
teacher for you.
Or did someone force you to do it? Krycek, the man which
you wouldn't even know if it wasn't for me? Did you really
think we wouldn't notice your affair? I never thought you
know us this little, Marita.
And now that's the price you and I have to pay for it. You
will suffer and I'll have to watch it.
But it's inevitable. The Syndicate has its eyes everywhere,
Marita. And we have to learn to obey to that.
I didn't want this to happen. How deep do you have to sink
to kill your own son? Or to give your wife into the hands
of alien scientists? Or to let your other son belive his
whole life that his sister was kidnapped by aliens?
I did all that. And I knew what I was doing. There is no
excuse for what I have done. And I don't need one. Except
one: It wasn't a mean in itself. I did it because it was the
best I could do. For the world.
Jeffrey was a loser. It was only because of me that he got
to where he was in the end. I helped him, hoping he would
do the right things. He didn't fulfill my expectations and
would've made everything even worse if I'd let him live.
I placed all my hopes in Cassandra and Mulder. Cassandra
was the opportunity to prevent colonization. Mulder was the
back-up plan should the aliens ally against us. Now it
seems as though they have done exactly that. The syndicate
has fallen to pieces. The American and the European one.
The only ones who are left are Diana and I.
Marita's still in Fort Marlene, but I'll get her out of it
soon, as back-up. And Krycek's still on the agenda. It's
ironic that in my desperation I have to rely on the two
persons of whom I know that they'll turn against me as soon
as they have th opportunity to. But even if they do so they
won't fully turn their back to the project. At least I hope
so. Every time the two of them tried to escape, they only
got sucked in deeper into the project. They are dependant,
puppets who think that they cut their strings. But they
didn't, the strings just got invisible. And undestroyable.
Diana doesn't need anything to keep her in line. Her
unconditional surrender to the project is almost scary.
Almost. Maybe she just pretends it. I'll have to watch her
But first I have to find a way to get this corpse out of
here. Shouldn't be difficult, one phone call or two. And
even if I don't do it, I don't care. I'll get away with it.
In this life there won't be a trial for me.
I didn't want this to happen. Really, Fox, I didn't.
"I know that you know about me, my loyalties," I hear myself say
and even in my ears it sounds hollow. I was never only loyal
If I think about it a bit longer I never was a bit loyal
to him. We never had this trust that I see that you and
Scully seem to have.
I'm not jealous. Why should I? Yes, I loved you and a spark
of it still exists in both of us, more in you than in me.
But not any more.
I work for 'the other side' now even though I'm not sure
whether it can be called that, 'cause deep down we have the
same goal, don't we? We just want to live. And I don't want
you to die. That was never one of my goals.
I don't know whether you can understand it, Fox, but
Spender was like a father to me when I needed one. Yes, he
used me to achieve what he wanted, bur aren't you being used
yourself? Everyone is always used by someone, Fox, no one's
free. I learned that. It's painful, but I learned it. And
deep inside of you, you know it, too.
Don't let them destroy you, Fox. You're a good man, don't
give up. I won't give you up. I can't get you out of here,
it's too risky. It's not only since Marita and Jeffrey that
I know what happens to 'traitors'. Scully will save you.
In more than one way, I have to belive that. She can give
you what I can't. Not any more. Trust. Unconditional support.
Maybe sometime I'll be able to give that again. But not to
you. Because than you won't take it.
Do you understand me, Fox?
I imagine to see you nod. It could be my imagination, born
out of desperation. Betrayal has its consequences. I know
that. And I'm ready for them, because I found peace.