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Maybe Marigolds by Miss Elise
Summary: Krycek's thoughts post-One Son. One Son spoilers, PG13, Krycek/Marita.
Maybe Marigolds by MissElise@aol.com Keywords: AV Rating: PG Spoilers: "One Son" Disclaimer: Not mine, no profit, yada. Summary: Krycek's thoughts post "One Son." ~*~ The world was going to hell, so Alex Krycek did what he did best--he vanished into the haze of a bar and began to drink himself closer to oblivion. He started with the same thing he always did, vodka. Through all the years and the mistakes and the deaths, it had always been there for him. It provided a clarity he otherwise lacked. When he had lost his arm, there had been vodka. When he had lost his parents, there had been vodka. When he had lost her--there was enough vodka to swim in. And now, he had lost her again. Seeing her standing there, lurking behind Spender--he hadn't expected it. He had lived his life so recklessly, he had come to expect anything. Or so he had thought. He hadn't expected this, not in a million years. He always thought that phrase was an understatement, but this time around, it was as true as things came. She looked-- No, he needed more vodka before he contemplated that. He poured, watching the clear trickle of liquid from the bottle to the glass. It made a gurgling sound, one that he liked, one that often made him have to piss. Not this time. Krycek's hand closed around the glass and he lifted it to his mouth, ignoring the way his hand shook. He had killed men and remained steady. He would not contemplate what this meant, that he shook at the mere thought of her appearance. He drank the vodka down, letting it fill all of the hollow places inside. When he poured his next glass, he could hardly remember meeting her. It had been a winter's day, bright with cold sunshine; it had turned her hair to spun sugar. Her hands had been wrapped in gloves so she couldn't feel the splinters from the aging bridge; she let go for a moment and smiled that pretty smile. She hadn't known he'd been watching. He drank straight from the bottle now, the cool liquid warming his belly. It dribbled down his chin and he wiped it up, licking his fingers. None of this would be wasted. None--because it would help him forget. He needed every drop to forget the first time he had kissed her. It had been an autumn day, with the wind blowing up off Lake Ladoga; she had stumbled over the rocky coast, squeezing his arm. They would have three nights and it wouldn't be enough. It was never enough. The edge of the bottle hit the table as he set it down, the vodka making a slosh against the confines. He watched it until it settled, pearling down the sides of the bottle. Maybe it was summer after all that he was trying to forget, with the red and gold kite flying high against the warm wind, laughter skirting along the edges as she told him that when she thought of America, she missed marigolds most of all. Tonight was too clear so he poured more vodka. It wouldn't let him down. It might take a little more than usual, but it would always come through. He gulped and let it slide down his throat, smiling as it erased the evening. Her hair was like straw, back lit by harsh blue lab light. Her eyes looked alien; that ice blue he had loved was gone, turned to a near-topaz, ringed in near- blood. Her beautiful mouth was ruined; he could remember kissing her for days, but that was gone now. "All gone," he whispered, suckling the bottle. He tipped it up, vodka flooding his mouth. He squeezed his eyes shut and drank hard, watching as the liquid washed the night away. Come morning, it would be all gone. He would forget that somewhere, there might be a grave in need of marigolds. Krycek gestured for another bottle. THE END
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