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Always on My Mind by Amanda
Summary: Yves musing, thinking about Jimmy. Jimmy/Yves, PG.
Title: Always on my Mind By: Amanda Feedback: greenfreakgirl@tomgreen.com Rating: PG Summary: Yves musing ? thinking about Jimmy Date Finish: July 12, 2001 The VW Van ? back 2:23 a.m. I hate being crammed in the back of this van. All of Langly?s things everywhere. If anyone ever told me that I?d be hanging around this group, I would have laughed in their face. It is an odd turn of events really. Looking around at Frohike and Byers in the front and Langly and Jimmy in the back with me, I can tell not one of them fully trusts me?.with the exception of Jimmy, who made it a point to sit back here with me. He is the exception to all of them. There is something about him. He is so warm, open, loyal, kind, caring?.and the list could go on. I am sure Byers, Frohike and even Langly are too, in their own ways. But Jimmy, he?s different. A good kind of different. He lets all that show. He isn?t afraid or embarrassed to let everyone know he is like that. There is a type of bravery to that. One I don?t have. And despite what they say, he isn?t all that dumb. He is smart, just in a different way. Byers is intellectual. Frohike is decisive. And Langly is damn good with computers. Though I would never tell him. Jimmy, he knows people. His eyes?.those blue eyes just stare into you. They read you and see who you really are, deep down. It makes me a little nervous knowing he can see that venerable side of me. I have worked so hard to build up those walls?.but he instantly takes them down. He is so trusting. I think he would put his life in my hands. But I would do anything to avoid having him in danger. Having his sleeping head on my shoulder makes life seem so normal. He makes me feel so normal. I wonder if any of them worry about feeling ?normal?. That is odd too. I spend so much time with these men, but I know nothing about whom they are. But than, they don?t know who I am either. Though, Jimmy is so close to finding me. That scares me. What if who he finds isn?t what he expects? I can?t find that out. I refuse to be hurt?.again. Though I think he?d do anything not to hurt me. He?s convinced he loves me?. Why don?t I find that laughable? Maybe because I think I could love him too. But no, I don?t fit into that category of women, the ones who find love and have their happy homes and children. I?m on the other side of the white picket fences and manicured lawns. Destined to live alone. "Yo! Earth to Yves," Langly broke into my thoughts, "You with us?" He was waving his hand in front of my face. "Oh, yes," I think I?m blushing, but it?s not like any of them could know what I was thinking about. "Well, Byers has been asking you a question," Langly gave me an eyebrow statement. "Byers, I?m sorry," I was embarrassed. I think it was Langly accusing statement, "I must be tired." Byers nodded, "Where do you want us to drop you off, Yves?" The real place I would like to go tonight?.home with Jimmy. I could never admit to that. And never will. I would rather appear to be an Ice Queen than leave myself open. "Just over here," I point to an apparent ?nowhere? location. They don?t really know how close they are to my home. I do feel bad for not letting them ?in?. But I am just not like that. I wish I had that, like Jimmy does. "Yes madam," Frohike nods and turns the van in the side of the road. Langly leans on the back of the seats, whispering something to his comrades. I lightly lifted Jimmy?s head off my shoulder and delicately rest it on the side of the van. I let my hand drift down his face, "Goodnight Jimmy," I lightly and quickly kissed his cheek. A smile formed on his face. The van stopped and I instantly opened the door. "Thanks for the help Yves," Byers said when he hear the door click open. "Couldn?t have done it without you," Frohike turned to smile at me. I simply smiled and nodded in reply. Langly waved his hand as he pushed Jimmy?s feet away from ?his side? of the van. I hopped out of the van and closed the door. It had become very cold. Jimmy had given me his jacket when we left the Karaoke Bar, I tightened it around myself. At least I can have a part of him with me tonight. I walked, alone toward a little plain looking building. ?Honey, I?m home.? Too bad no one would be there to greet me. THE END
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